urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:redlipsbigriffs Not by a long shot I Own You 2004-12-21T01:32:10Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:redlipsbigriffs:3947 2004-12-21T01:32:10Z 2004-12-21T01:32:10Z I'm home.<br /><br />Its been over a month since I've been gone. <br /><br />And over 25 pounds are also gone. <br /><br />I am thinner than ever and I feel wonderful.<br /><br />Yet.. none of my clothes fit. Not the extra small anything.. but my petites are still too small.<br /><br />It's strange.. I weight the least I ever have.. and measured with the smallest my waist and thighs have ever been.. yet... I can't fit into my old clothes? What the hell is that?<br /><br />Justin realized he can't stop this. He told me if I dip under 90 or stop having my period he's putting me in the hospital. And I've gone that route and know how to hide it.. he doesn't know that.. so I just agreed..<br /><br />it'd be more likely that we were pregnant than me stopping it because of my diet.<br /><br />I love him. But he just doesn't get it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:redlipsbigriffs:3833 2004-11-15T10:03:21Z 2004-11-15T10:03:21Z I told Justin that I bought stackers.<br /><br />He's pissed. More than pissed.<br /><br /><br /><br />He told me he worries about me when he's far away.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />It really hurts to lie to him. This is why I am so thankful for this journal.<br /><br />I am going to be a hard wife to live with. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:redlipsbigriffs:3516 2004-11-12T10:43:11Z 2004-11-12T10:43:11Z We will Rise : Arch Enemy My voice is gone. Gone gone gone.<br /><br />Rain and cold equals me getting sick.<br /><br />Skinned elbows and hands and a ruined jacket.<br /><br />Ian figured it all out. I have yet to see my spine, but apparently he could see it through my shirt. Consequently, I was berated for a half an hour because of it. He even threatened to call Justin and tell him everything.<br /><br />Maybe it's just me, but the threat of telling the one person who I know will stand through me with all this shit.. and hell.. is just as skinny as I am .. isn't much of a threat.<br /><br /><b>on the plus side</b><br /><br />I have an excuse to buy a new jacket.<br /><br />I can put off the record for a few more weeks... you know because... I "need more time emotionally"... <br /><br /><i>IAN COULD SEE MY SPINE TODAY!!!</i> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:redlipsbigriffs:1566 2004-11-08T06:30:54Z 2004-11-08T06:30:54Z <a href="http://www.TickerFactory.com/"><br /><img border="0" src="http://www.TickerFactory.com/ezt/d/3;10701;66;0;0/c/-4/t/-20/k/9548/weight.png"></a><br /><br /><br />Hehe.. yes. I stole it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:redlipsbigriffs:261 2004-05-17T00:17:57Z 2004-05-17T00:17:57Z I got a new journal.. No one knows it's even here.<br />But thats alright. Cause no one even knows it's me!!